The belief in Fate

Do you believe in fate ?

Do you believe in God ?

Do you believe in karma and its cycle that shapes fate ?

Or do you believe that one makes his own destiny ?

All the 4 thought processes fascinate me . I keep thinking about them as I view my own life and also the lives of various others who I come in contact with .

If the fourth question that I posed is to be believed , why is it that not all can get what they want inspite of being immensely talented ? Somewhere the luck factor evades them . Perfectly ordinary people seem to get the best out of life while the talented ones do NOT necessarily make it big .

It seems Annapurna Devi , The wife [ divorced} of Pandit Ravi Shankar played the sitar even better than him . She was the daughter of Ravi Shankar's Guru . Yet , after marraige , due to husband's insistence [ some say } she did NOT play in the public eye as much as she should have . Later the discord in her marraige [ she was of a very sensitive artistic temperament } made her a recluse and she withdrew to the extent that even her near and dear ones hardly got to see her .

The world lost a sitarist of an exceptional genius like calibre they say . All the eminent musicians who have heard her play have agreed in unison on this .....She played BETTER than her husband .

I read up a lot on Annapurna Devi . The last journalist who traced the recluse and talked to her and heard her play ...........he had requested her to give him lessons as a shishya........came back stymied .

I wanted to write and become an author . It was my childhood dream .

But Each time I tried , I was accepted in the creative writing programs but turned down by the graduate schools due to some faltoo technicality .

Once it was my recommendation letters ......they were not good enough .

Twice it was health issue .

Once it was the damned GRE exam . It had a maths section which was the rquirement of some graduate schools . I have lost touch with it .I never WAS a Math person . But hey I could WRITE . One does not need to know Math to write .

The amazing thing was , my writing sample was appreciated by the directors of the program who spoke personally to me and assured me I was selected .They liked it so much that they phoned me .

I could not make it as a writer .

Far inferior writers have however made it .

Is it my Fate ? I remember an astrologer who told me years ago .........You will never make it as a writer . You have talent, perhaps more so than the others but there is no glory , recognition and appreciation in your fate .

I still try . Some part of me is refusing to give up .

I believe it wants to manifest itself as thats who I am .

Will my Fate hamper me ?

Wll praying to God help me ?God knows I have prayed hard enough .

Its easy to say I make My own destiny ........better said then done , right ?

Your thoughts would help my friends . Waiting for them .